I couldn't tell you ....

Surprised with a capital " S", I stood,

As you asked  , " why do you love me"?

Surprised was I , not with you, but with myself.

As words came to my throat ;

They couldn't find their way out of my quivering lips.

I wanted to tell you many things;

Yet I couldn't .

Your presence got me tongue-tied as always.

I couldn't tell you

As words fail to surpass the limitations of language

To delineate the subtle, intangible, ineffable human feelings.

I couldn't tell you

Your eyes and face radiate a sublime angelic aura,

Which, when set on me,

Makes me feel nonplussed,

Or rather, stupefied ;

At the same time, a joy-inexpressible-inundates

The entire entity of mine,

And gradually the whole world.

I couldn't divulge

Anything that is most beautiful,
Anything that is most invaluable,

Anything that is most amazing,

Anything that is most phenomenal,

Anything that is most marvelous ,

Anything that can be most sought after

is YOU
May be some other time,
May be some other evening,
Under the star studded sky
With bright, radiant, charming moon up above,
Sitting at the same place in the garden,
I'll speak my heart out to you.
I'll let you know how much priceless you are.
My existence without you would be like
A man within the grave, alive , awake,
Battling for life, tussling with utmost earnestness, 
To have the slightest glimpse
Of the beautiful face of yours,
With may be a tiny drop of tear
In your ever magnetic,alluring eyes'.

May be some other time,
May be some other evening,
I'll let you know....  .

I wish you could ever realize.......

I wish  you could ever realize

How it felt  when you said,

You didn't love me anymore.

It was as if thousands of arrows pierced my chest,

And my heart broke the way a mirror would,

When dashed  to the ground .

The world appeared to enter

The abysmal absence of light and vitality.

I wish you could ever know,

How I, staring at the ceiling, kept awake,

night after night, thinking of you

Even long after you had gone away .

I wish you could ever know,

How I , burying my head into the side pillow,

kept sobbing through the night,

Thinking about you.

I wish you could ever know

How you, when I fell asleep,

Appeared in my dreams,

Only to scold me for loving you.

Tears roll down my cheeks

As I remember how we sat in the garden,

hand in hand, silent.

Amidst the chirping of birds,

Frequent shouting of children,

And humming of casual visitors around,

We were lost in our mute colloquy,

As silence became more vocal than speech.

I wish you could ever realize

How much this silence made me feel complete,

With the feeling of togetherness !

And how much I wished time to stop there,

Till eternity.

I wish you could ever realize

A broken heart never causes death,

It makes life far worse;

As it converts life into the ugliest nightmare,

The every millisecond of which

One has to live,

Wide awake,

In extreme agony and ache.

Should I wait ?

Should I wait?
Just as the blue firmament awaits
His beloved earth in the distant horizon?
Or I have to wait till I get wrinkled or wizen?

Should I wait
Just as the grass, through the night, awaits
The early morning dew
Or I have to wait
Till you understand my point of view.
Should I wait
Just as the birds await rain in midsummer?
Or I have to wait
Till you find me to be a comer?
Should I wait
As love transcends
All tangible boundaries of reason,
As it is everlasting, and knows no season.
Should I wait
Till the perdition takes over the entire universe?
Or the sweet, innocent, lass

wants me to bleed forever,
though dynasties pass??

Love is the sobriquet of pain

Whenever I strive to forget,
The memories you beget ;
A lump of grief climbs up my throat,
As tears in my eyes appear to float.
I sit with my head down,
but clutching my heart , my mind wants to frown .
Is loving you truly my fault?
Why do you say no, why do you give me such a jolt ?
It was you who, again, started talking ,
Were you playing with my emotions and just mocking ?
Tears in my eyes start raining down my cheeks,
While in my heart, it creates more shrieks.
I ask to God with all the pain ,
'' Why do you always have to give me all the strain ?
Why is it always me ?
And everybody else should go scotfree''?
God beams and says to me,
'' I gifted love that you yearned for thee'' .

Fractured Heart

A fractured heart never heals. Its like an injury left unattended forever.With every passing day, it appears to mitigate, but it doesn't. With the slightest prodding, it resurfaces again and makes one aware of its existence. And thus, this vicious cycle of pain, ache & misery continues.....