I wish you could ever realize.......

I wish  you could ever realize

How it felt  when you said,

You didn't love me anymore.

It was as if thousands of arrows pierced my chest,

And my heart broke the way a mirror would,

When dashed  to the ground .

The world appeared to enter

The abysmal absence of light and vitality.

I wish you could ever know,

How I, staring at the ceiling, kept awake,

night after night, thinking of you

Even long after you had gone away .

I wish you could ever know,

How I , burying my head into the side pillow,

kept sobbing through the night,

Thinking about you.

I wish you could ever know

How you, when I fell asleep,

Appeared in my dreams,

Only to scold me for loving you.

Tears roll down my cheeks

As I remember how we sat in the garden,

hand in hand, silent.

Amidst the chirping of birds,

Frequent shouting of children,

And humming of casual visitors around,

We were lost in our mute colloquy,

As silence became more vocal than speech.

I wish you could ever realize

How much this silence made me feel complete,

With the feeling of togetherness !

And how much I wished time to stop there,

Till eternity.

I wish you could ever realize

A broken heart never causes death,

It makes life far worse;

As it converts life into the ugliest nightmare,

The every millisecond of which

One has to live,

Wide awake,

In extreme agony and ache.

Love is the sobriquet of pain

Whenever I strive to forget,
The memories you beget ;
A lump of grief climbs up my throat,
As tears in my eyes appear to float.
I sit with my head down,
but clutching my heart , my mind wants to frown .
Is loving you truly my fault?
Why do you say no, why do you give me such a jolt ?
It was you who, again, started talking ,
Were you playing with my emotions and just mocking ?
Tears in my eyes start raining down my cheeks,
While in my heart, it creates more shrieks.
I ask to God with all the pain ,
'' Why do you always have to give me all the strain ?
Why is it always me ?
And everybody else should go scotfree''?
God beams and says to me,
'' I gifted love that you yearned for thee'' .

Fractured Heart

A fractured heart never heals. Its like an injury left unattended forever.With every passing day, it appears to mitigate, but it doesn't. With the slightest prodding, it resurfaces again and makes one aware of its existence. And thus, this vicious cycle of pain, ache & misery continues.....